You and I are about the same age. Several of my providers and I have been talking about how this time of forced rest is an opportunity to reflexrt on the transition of perimenopause. It helps me to see it as a gift, having to be this slow and reflective with LC, as if I am cocooning. Not sure when else I’d have granted myself this much downtime unless I’d become ill. Fascinating to ponder what the universe sends us and what we make of it.
Absolutely. Now I could do without the pain and shortness of breath but, hey, we don't get to pick from the LC menu. I'm cheering you on. Thanks for reading- I deeply appreciate it.
Adele- Thank you for this very thoughtful piece. Much to ponder. Are we still "ourselves" from before LC ? Does someone who loves their self-sufficiency have to give that up with LC, and let others do for them- maybe. But, to me, the hardest part of going through this is still all about SELF. Balancing being proactive with your recovery while maintaining hope and developing acceptance is THE challenge-- the challenge that will take all of our self-reliance and resilience to stay the course of LC, and still enjoy and find meaning in our lives. I guess that's what you're doing by writing!
Marvin, thank you. And yes, writing has been such a generative output of what is clearly a very challenging time. I totally agree about the balance of self advocacy and accepting what is. It's a fine line to walk! And takes adjustment as our days unfold. For me, this does feel transformational in ways that I couldn't predict- still can't, really. Part of the acceptance is following my curiosity about that transformation and seeing it as invitation instead of limitation. I really appreciate your thoughts and for reading along!
Oh how I loved reading this. You are a brave warrior, whether you are a moon or a shooting star. You are brilliant and introspective, and I'm so proud of you and how you're showing up for yourSELF, however she may look to yourSELF from pre-long Covid. This is beautiful, you are beautiful. I love you.
Thank you once again for letting us in to see this SELF, for letting me help (and helping me learn how to help). Courage is the word that keeps coming to mind as I read this: to be willing to look so closely at what has been so hard and to capture it in words. I agree with Heath, and see your lunar self brightening the dark. Hold tight to that Rumi quote too and all the possibility it offers in shifting the story. Love you, all of you and yourSELVES.
This is such an incredible awareness and seems fitting that this deep work does seem to be happening at this age in your life. Many of us for very different reasons, if we are fortunate enough, will spend time revisiting the child we were, or who we thought we were and needed to be.
Were we born with these strong personality trates or are they a result of our environment that we were fiercely independent, or perhaps a perfections who did not want to need anything from anyone but was going to follow the rules with hopes of getting it “right”.
I pray for your swift recovery from LC, that has sent you into great pain, uncertainty and despair. But I want to celebrate the beautiful journey of greater self awareness that may come
from this. Heath’s description of what he sees in you is breathtaking. Sending love, always with the greatest respect for the incredible way you live life, always full of hunger for adventure and knowledge.
You and I are about the same age. Several of my providers and I have been talking about how this time of forced rest is an opportunity to reflexrt on the transition of perimenopause. It helps me to see it as a gift, having to be this slow and reflective with LC, as if I am cocooning. Not sure when else I’d have granted myself this much downtime unless I’d become ill. Fascinating to ponder what the universe sends us and what we make of it.
Absolutely. Now I could do without the pain and shortness of breath but, hey, we don't get to pick from the LC menu. I'm cheering you on. Thanks for reading- I deeply appreciate it.
Adele- Thank you for this very thoughtful piece. Much to ponder. Are we still "ourselves" from before LC ? Does someone who loves their self-sufficiency have to give that up with LC, and let others do for them- maybe. But, to me, the hardest part of going through this is still all about SELF. Balancing being proactive with your recovery while maintaining hope and developing acceptance is THE challenge-- the challenge that will take all of our self-reliance and resilience to stay the course of LC, and still enjoy and find meaning in our lives. I guess that's what you're doing by writing!
Marvin, thank you. And yes, writing has been such a generative output of what is clearly a very challenging time. I totally agree about the balance of self advocacy and accepting what is. It's a fine line to walk! And takes adjustment as our days unfold. For me, this does feel transformational in ways that I couldn't predict- still can't, really. Part of the acceptance is following my curiosity about that transformation and seeing it as invitation instead of limitation. I really appreciate your thoughts and for reading along!
Oh how I loved reading this. You are a brave warrior, whether you are a moon or a shooting star. You are brilliant and introspective, and I'm so proud of you and how you're showing up for yourSELF, however she may look to yourSELF from pre-long Covid. This is beautiful, you are beautiful. I love you.
Thank you for sharing your vulnerable and open self. I love you and miss you very much!
Thank you once again for letting us in to see this SELF, for letting me help (and helping me learn how to help). Courage is the word that keeps coming to mind as I read this: to be willing to look so closely at what has been so hard and to capture it in words. I agree with Heath, and see your lunar self brightening the dark. Hold tight to that Rumi quote too and all the possibility it offers in shifting the story. Love you, all of you and yourSELVES.
This is such an incredible awareness and seems fitting that this deep work does seem to be happening at this age in your life. Many of us for very different reasons, if we are fortunate enough, will spend time revisiting the child we were, or who we thought we were and needed to be.
Were we born with these strong personality trates or are they a result of our environment that we were fiercely independent, or perhaps a perfections who did not want to need anything from anyone but was going to follow the rules with hopes of getting it “right”.
I pray for your swift recovery from LC, that has sent you into great pain, uncertainty and despair. But I want to celebrate the beautiful journey of greater self awareness that may come
from this. Heath’s description of what he sees in you is breathtaking. Sending love, always with the greatest respect for the incredible way you live life, always full of hunger for adventure and knowledge.
Thank you for sharing yourself with us♥️